Who are we to second guess God???

I am sitting here today wanting to write a totally different blog but feel compelled to say what is really on my heart. This weekend was a totally fantastic weekend spent with new found friends and then with family which Tom will cover in pictures. The beginning of the week brought some devastating news and for me a trip back down a road I thought was behind me. Bobby my BIL was diagnosed with terminal cancer on Tuesday. The events and the diagnosis eerily paralled what I went through with Glenn when we found out the news - feeling pretty good then started feeling bad and a doctors visit and a test that changed lives forever. I felt like I was living it all over again while taking to Joyce and then again with Lee. Talking with Joyce I had no real words of comfort - I know what they are facing - I know the fears, uncertaintity and loss that is in their future. The regimen of treatment is exactly the same as Glenns - intensive chemo with concurrent radiation in hopes of shrinking the tumor and then a possible 8 hour surgery - if that doesn't work then just palliative chemo to keep Bobby comfortable. Again I sit here asking why???? - why are some hit with terminal cancer when diagnosed and not others. I also look back on a chain of events that got Joyce and Bobby back near family so they wouldn't have to face this alone and I look back on the events that got Glenn and I back near our children again so we wouldn't have to face it alone and the kids would have time with their father and realize that God had a hand in it all.

I wish I had the words to tell Joyce and Bobby that it will be OK - God has his reasons and he will see them through this but they seem so hollow. For me as devastating as it was to go through what Glenn and I did - he did have a plan and I am now so very happy again. I can't say that to Joyce -she doesn't want to hear that now - I didn't when I was going through it. Right now I know they can only see and hear the present and it hurts and seems so bleak. They are in for a very rough road and a very terrifying one - Please keep them in your prayers......

Lynne